Here we go again, school again.

Hello all,

No, I am not dead. I have just been busy with my homework (this is the least of my worries), assignments (including essays) and presentations. Some professors give so many activities and assignments. They cause quite a bit of stress for me. Although I am ahead of my tasks-- for now-- I think I'm near the largest drop of a roller coaster ride, so very near.

What I expect for the next few weeks, more essays, assignments... I have a 1500 essay due on Dan Brown's The Da Vinvi Code. The essay is about the history of the book. I enjoy Dan Brown very much so; however, my professor seems to despise the author's writing very much. I'm afraid, but I'll go ahead and write about Dan Brown's book anyway. I'll take it as a challenge.

I also have a 1500 essay for my ENGL 1127 class. This essay is much more stressful. The proposal of 250 words took half a day and resulted in me sleeping at 3 AM. My brain was crying and I think white hairs were peeking out for their time in the limelight.

Midterms are also near, I must know my knowledge and concepts. I must know my "stuff". I am trying to maintain a CGPA that I will be satisfied with. It may be the only way I'll stay happy through all these assignments and work that I must do for this diploma (paper).

Not long after, I have an ASTR 3310 (Astronomy) presentation to give. I really hope my fear of public speaking has lessened after the job I took at PNE (Handstamper). I won't know unless I try, and it might be good... or it might be bad, very bad.

Have a good night everyone. Until next time...

Given Up

I withdrew from English. This professor...
"Giving out F's like it's Christmas, and
A mark above C is like every February 29th."

I received an F.

Hello readers,

Today, I have officially received my first F in my academic studies. Yes, the very first F I have received. It is from my professor of the ENGL 1127 course I am taking this summer semester. I wonder if anyone can help me pass this course because it seems quite impossible at the moment. So if you have any writing tips or reminders for essay writing to pass on, please let me know in the comments below. 

I cannot say whether it is my mistake or the professor. A couple classmates also received Fs. I have confidence that I tried very hard for this timed English essay, but maybe it wasn't enough? Or, due to the amounts of Fs given out, it might be the professor's rather difficult marking. 

I am pretty upset about receiving an F in a subject that I feel I am competent at. Especially after all my grade 12 English teacher has taught me, I felt happy to be taking English again. However, this is not the case anymore. I understand that staying upset does not help me in the long run, but it is a feeling I have right now. Sadness. I am disappointed at myself being unable to pass this essay; it was the very first essay in this course. 

Like all cheesy lines, clichés and overused comfort-statements, I understand that this F does not stop the world from spinning and life from continuing. I will only be sad momentarily. The remaining faith in myself is staying intact and I will return stronger than ever. Life goes on and I will continue trying. All to make a change in this world, this lifetime ... for the better.