Put-downs

What I have come to believe is,
People will put you down because they-
envy you.

Jealousy knows no harm.

Time Travelling

I will be a rebel. I will wait until it's 12 AM to turn the clock back one hour. So I will be able to travel back in time. I'll need it. ~ Me on Facebook

This time travel, I need it. To feel better. Even just the smallest sliver. I would have preferred a time travel that goes much further back. I would wish I had never met him. I wish I have never fall in love. And I also hope, he would have not known me ever. Because now it hurts, things I think of makes me feel selfish. I'm not comfortable, I'm not happy and I have forgotten the feeling of love. He has not shown me or helped me feel those similar emotions that I had when I thought we were going to be forever. I thought I found my soulmate. Why doesn't he seem to care? I do not want to lose the only person that ( I hope ) truly loves me for who I am. However, most of the time... I don't have the slightest clue as to who he is with, what is he doing, where he is, when he is out partying, and why this girl seems more girlfriendly than I could ever be. But as long as he is happy, even with her, I will also be happy. Wherever I may be.

It is, a punch in the face.

"No matter what you do or how you try, things never change just magically." And apparently, trying for a long period of time does not work either. It's just that hard to change. Even myself. ~ Me on Facebook

Jealousy, it just does not leave me alone. I'll assume it's just me and my over-thinking. My own free will? I don't think so, my will is the firewall to the flames of jealousy. A defense to my offense. Please, stop thinking.